Q: Susan – from as far as I can remember, I wake up tired, groggy, and sleepy and that’s how I feel for the rest of the day as well. There is no energy and motivation in me most of the times. What questions can I ask for that? What clearings can I run?
Q. Hi Susan – I have a burning question! I have been listening to the Abuse clearing audio for two months now (not non-stop though, that would not have been kind). Right now, I am dog sitting in Hungary, for a second time. The owner is looking to expand and we are talking about collaborating in a way, where I can be the designated dog sitter, a job I absolutely love, and create products and events for fundraising.
We seemed to be on the same wavelength, but something strange happened when I arrived. He doesn’t talk to me. Literally. He says he feels I don’t want to talk to him, which by now is absolutely true, because I feel with every word I say, it is one word too many, no matter the subject.
I thought he was just “the silent type.” However, last week he brought over the investor who is funding his expansion plans and they were best buddies, chatting up a storm, laughing etc. so it seems he just doesn’t want to talk to ME. I don’t feel like talking about anything with him at all. The seven dogs allow for some talking material, but other than that, I feel like anything else is off limits.
I wonder what I can ask to know if I should get the hell out of here? Or think twice about collaborating with him and his investing partner? Is this a ‘sign’ (so to speak) that collaborating with him is heavy?
Q1: Hi Susan – I noticed that in some instances my “I am not worthy enough” belief gets triggered. My mom used to tell me that people don’t treat us nicely because we were not rich. We were not good enough or were outcast somehow. I lived all my life from this story before I came to Access Consciousness. It has changed a lot; I feel like that less often. Yet the other day my friend rejected my call with a text that she was busy. That just triggered, “if it was not me she wouldn’t have rejected my call.” As if I was not worthy of her attention.
I want to get over this completely. Is it getting triggered because I still don’t have intimacy with myself? Is there any one element in particular that I need to work on?
Q1: Dear Susan – what is receiving? To you? What is your awareness? What would you say to someone who is asking often for what they’d like and perhaps not being the ‘receiving’?
Q2: Hi Susan – it’s like I have a wall around something within me. I can run these processes over and over, and still I can’t let go of this wall and choose to be me. I have to hide behind someone to choose to be me. Do I wait until I get it? Or can I choose something else? weip