I listened to Susan’s talk about perfectionism and was just crying and so relieved at the thought of just letting a loving man hold me. I wrote down all of the benefits this man could bring into my life and placed them beside each branch of the tree (metaphor used in Susan’s video) and I saw all the wonderful gifts that he was really only wanting to share with me. So, after that. I put down my “self-disturbing,” “look how screwed up you are, you better fix that or you’re gonna attract more crap,” books and took a deep breathe and sent this sweet man a message… “I’m sorry for being so harsh and acting all superior assholish and I’ve put my self-degrading books down and I’d like to get to know you. Will you forgive me?” Haha! I feel SO much better now, like I’m living my life and not “stopping to fix something,” before living again. I trust myself and I am not attached to the outcome and I feel like the true me is just loving, allowing, expansive, joyful, sassy, sexy, fun & playful me again! Whoohooo!!!