I used to get a sense that something massive was terribly wrong in my life and I would spend hours, days, and months stymied by the vast awareness that there was something else I was sent here to do and be. I learned to hide from the world without anyone noticing, all the while pondering “What the heck am I doing here?”
Sidebar: according to the National Health Mental Institute depression is defined as a ‘serious but treatable mood disorder’
I was aware that this wasn’t a mood disorder or a depression. It was, in fact, an acute awareness of the world we live in and what most people are choosing that I couldn’t make heads or tails of. Does any of this sound familiar to you? Here is what I know for sure;
If you stop pursuing what others deem important and begin to nurture you with what brings you joy, that doubt, depression, and quest for purpose ceases to mean anything.
How have I learned to refuel?
By asking questions about what works, what doesn’t work and what creates greater, truly greater for me, for what I am creating, for the planet. It’s about listening to the winds of change, breathing in deeply, and being present to the possibilities of what nurtures you – not what doesn’t.
We have been receiving crates of pears as gifts for Christmas. Last night I cut up pears, apples, ginger, onions and added in cloves, raisins, chili powder, fresh nutmeg and vinegar. Soon the kitchen was filled with the smells of pear chutney, something I hadn’t made in years. Today its pear pies for my family coming to visit. Simple pleasures and contributions that we so easily overlook while searching for our destiny, our purpose, our demise.
Here are two questions to ask yourself today:
Please play with these and let me know what are you gifting yourself with today that is nurturing you and what you are asking for?
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